New Season

Ready or not, here it comes... A new season that is...

I turned 25 today or a quarter of century, however you want to look at it. It's crazy to think about. But more importantly, I found out today that a dear dear friend is moving away.

I remember being at her wedding and she knew that she and her husband would be living in a different city than anybody else and I could tell it was a heavy load to bear. I wanted so much to say that I'm here for you, but i couldn't bring myself to say it, because I told God.... I would never say something like that unless I could truly stand next to her through all that God would take her. Well... I remember the prompting of Holy Spirit to encourage her in this specific way, I was taken back because I knew that if God wanted me to say something like that, it would only be because I could mean it... and mean it I did. God opened up a door for me to work in the same city.

For these past 3 years, my heart has become so close to hers. She is so dear and so precious to me that I cannot explain it. I know that God is faithful and that he has a beautiful plan for each of us. It will be so hard to let go of such a close friendship. I know that our friendship will not end, but I will certainly miss seeing her every Tuesday, every other Monday, every Saturday night, random Fridays, occasional lunches and even more sporadic sleep overs.

I also know that as God moves them into a new season that He is also moving me into a new season. This couple was the closest thing i had to family in this city. I am so grateful for their love, encouragement, grace, laughter, tears, and friendship. But just as the Lord is faithful, I know that He would not let me or my friends stay in place of contentment if He knew that a new season and place would be better, even if it wasn't easy. I know this transition for them may be difficult and extremely trying but the end result will be more beautiful than they could ever imagine... for both of us.

I look forward to the day that we can look back and smile so big realizing that this transition was so necessary for God to do the incredible things that took place in our lives.

In the meantime, I choose to trust my Creator who loves me and has a master plan in place to orchestrate me life. How comforting... : )

Focused Thoughts

I have currently been reading from Tom Minnery's "Why you can't stay silent." I read tonight about Wesley and William Booth. They each suffered greatly for the gospel, but they had a part in changing their culture because they knew the truth and they knew they had to share it.

Booth and Wesley are obvious examples of people who stood up for truth, but I really love the more obscure examples like Tom Wilson...a Vermont farmer moved by his convictions concerning God's plan for marriage. He called up some friends and they had a meeting with seven neighbors, but that grew to hundreds, than thousands and lead by the church leaders to preserve the culture.

The premise of Minnery's book is that as Christians we are called to be salt and light in our world. It is not enough to just disagree silently, you must talk about it and take Biblical stands publicly, because this is what preserves our culture.

Excited to read on...

Eternal Thinking

Unfortunately due to my culture I sometimes find myself thinking in one liners to post on facebook... a sad reality, but true nonetheless.

The latest would look something like this....

"I find I'm not so selfish when my thoughts are focused on eternal things."

When I find myself down about something its usually because I haven't applied eternal thinking. I have personally seen this verse lived out in my life: Seek first the Kingdom of God his righteous and all these things shall be added.

Delight yourself in the Lord and HE willl give you the desires of your heart.

For the Good

It's amazing how trials can bring out the best. James wasn't kidding when he said "consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds." He obviously got the understanding that it is only through trials that we truly grow.

Here lately life hasn't turned out quite like I expected. So I had a choice to make... I could either get upset, doubt God, take offense, harbor bitterness or I can step on top of the mess and choose to love God anyway.

I was going through life recently and as I was getting out of my car I started mumbling to myself. To be honest, I don't even remember what I was debating in my head, but I was definitely weighing which thought pattern I was going to take. My choices were pretty clear in front of me. One good option or one shallow option. I thought for a second and then stopped in my tracks and stated out loud.

"No. You know what satan... that is a stupid idea."

I knew the bad option would be right up his alley. So I reminded him...

"Why would I ever listen to you? You, hate me and God loves me. Of course I am going to take His path, because I know that all you want to do to me is kill me, steal from me and destroy me. "

As soon as I said this out loud everything became so clear. There was no battle anymore. I think when we realize how much God loves us, it doesn't matter how hard the road is that He has for us, we will follow. I mean who ever follows someone that despises them, especially when the other option is to follow someone who loves us intensely.

This song has been my theme song lately. My declaration each morning:

Verse 1:
Nothing can separate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails

I know I still make mistakes, but
You have new mercy for me everyday
Your love never fails

Chorus:
You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There may be pain in the night
But joy comes in the morning
And when the oceans rage
I don’t have to be afraid
Because I know that you love me
And your love never fails

Verse 2:
The wind is strong and the water’s deep, but
I’m not alone here in these open seas
Cause your love never fails

The chasm was far too wide
I never thought I’d reach the other side
But your love never fails

I love that no matter what we go through, God chooses to use it for our good - simply because we love Him! : )
Bridge: You make all things, work together for my good

New Adventures

I love new adventures!!! I leave Monday with 54 other individuals to go on a missions trip to Myrtle Beach! I am so excited, but this isn't an average trip for me, because I am responsible for these students and other leaders. I have the honor of co-leading 25 of them.

I haven't felt well today so I have been in bed most of the day trying to recuperate. But as I have been confined to being still today I am thinking about the trip and what makes a good leader. I am reminded that a good leader doesn't just let things happen, but they lead (hence the name). Yes, they direct, plan and execute their plan to accomplish a goal. So, I have been thinking about our goal. The phrase/words that keep coming to mind are , "nothing is impossible". I am SO excited that I have the opportunity to lead 6th and 7th graders, because I think they are simply incredible and I want them to know that with God, truly "all things are possible." Because that is who we serve. The verse that stood out to me for our trip was Ephesians 3:20-21.

"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever. Amen."

God, I want so badly that these students catch the vision that you are who you say you are and that you can do what you say you can do. I want the students to dream big. I want to challenge them to pray for something and truly believe for it. Lord, I have seen you do incredible miracles in my life and I have seen it in others. And as these students are in what I like to think as an incubator, I want them to stretch their faith so that they will always have this as a milestone to look back on and be amazed at who you are and what you can truly do in their lives.

Thank you God. I am expecting this and I am so excited! I personally am expecting to see unity on our team that I never dreamt possible. Lord, take us through challenging circumstances that will bring us together, and I pray that we would not fail, but instead thrive!

I am expecting to see these teenagers lives completely turned around. That they will not return the same next Monday.

I am expecting to see atmospheres totally change in Myrtle Beach because we have been there with a clear mission to pray, intercede and let your light shine through our lives. I thank you that we have the opportunity to fulfill the great commission by being a light, a city on a hill and to bring the word to other cities.

I am expecting these students to build relationships with one another that go far beyond school work and class time. But these students are forever brothers and sisters in Christ and we choose to honor and love our brothers and sisters in the Lord. We will put one another first, and not ourselves.

Lord, I expect you to do great things through us, because we are available and we say, Lord, have your way! Your Kingdom come, and your will be done in Jesus name!!!

Shock Wave

Have you ever been separated from something or someone for so long that your time away made you a different person, but when reunited you were overwhelmed because the nature of what had been absent in your life was so different than the life you willingly chose?

I can think of many examples... friends, a loved one...

For me tonight, it wasn't a person, but a thing... the television.

I have gone without a television for so long that I don't even think about it, but tonight I watched one for 5 straight hours. And it took so much of my time and energy away. When sitting there, all I thought about were the constant messages being put out from the screen. I really think we should call them message boxes.... because that is what they are... a box that constantly delivers messages.

The thing is... as a Christian, I don't want all those messages in my mind...

yeah. Oh, Superbowl Sunday.

Beautiful Things

I recently heard a song "Beautiful Things" by the Michael Gungor Band. It mesmerized me, probably not the song itself, but the message... though I did like the guy's voice and the tones in the song.

So here it is:

"You make beautiful things, you make beautiful things out of the dust, you make beautiful things out of us."

Oh, Amen. Where would I be, if God didn't create beauty from my mess. I ahve so meany of them, and so many that I am ashamed of...

But GOd spoke a powerful word to me. First of all, I realized what a hypocrite I have been to some people... "I heard a testimony of a man who said, 'I am living a lie.'" I thought over his words and didn't take long to look into my heart to have to face the reality that I have been living a lie. I have been so focused on rules and regulations... of course I would say "in the name of love" and apply them to those around me. The worst part is that I realized I am pushing this judgment on others, because thats how I feel... judged.

I sat there in church desperately wanting to leave and find a dark space to just lay prostrate, cry and repent. But, I knew the Holy Spirit said:

stay. I want you to hear this message.

It wasn't long after that I felt the holy spirit whisper to me,

Daughter, you haven't fully received my love for yourself and my grace for yourself, so you aren't extending it to others.

Oh, that was a relief, but I didn't understand why I hadn't received that love... And then Pastor spoke on the hard things that happen in life... death, disease, sickness, all those things that Satan loves:

John 10:10 says, "satan came to steal, kill and destroy, but I have come that they might have life and have it more abundantly."

So, here's the recap: Things happen, we can't control them... But God uses those things to make beauty come from it. He is so creative and has such good intent that he loves to watch flowers bloom, knowing full well that they are so fragile... yet he still creates them and millions of them in fact.

Our God Reigns, Holy, wonderful, peaceful, loving Creator.

To you alone be glory and honor and praise. Forever and forever. Amen.